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So lets look back... [17 Apr 2008|07:15pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | Nouvelle Vague ] So lets see..      Amanda and Keith are now married.      Nate moved in with me.       I started my chest piece.      Soon to be starting the piece up my leg.      I still work at Robert Jason Salon....blegh.      I've become more hostile than usual.      I drive now, and have a mobile.      And within the passed 5 minutes, I've decided I'm gonna move to LA Soon. Bruins Playoff Game vs. Montreal. 4/13/08 Lucky in Love. Whos that bitch?! The Bentleys Wedding! 11/10/07 My brother is now a married man! 2 comments|post comment

So lets discuss... [15 Jul 2007|09:44pm] [ mood | guilty ] [ music | amy winehouse and nancy sinatra ] Well where to even begin... I finished beauty school, got licensed and am now working at a pimp salon in Andover, which as everybody can recall, was what i wanted for day 1. But now that its here, I just...I dont know. I feel like my life is moving faster than my brain. I feel like being 17 doesnt mean anything, and that with the way things are going, I mine as well be 46. I feel like no matter how much I succeed professionally no body is proud, and it doesnt matter. I feel like no matter what I say or do, if it makes one person happy, it makes another mad. I feel like I cant trust anybody anymore, whether its home, or work. I feel like i lost all friendships, all relationships, and all happiness. I feel like that what Im doing should be making me happy,and others proud, but on the contrare, its nothing like that at all. I feel like dropping out was the biggest mistake I've ever made, and I feel like growing upand money isnt all it cracked up the be. And I feel like no matter what, I'll never fit in with the people I should, and I dont want to fit in with the people I can. You know, sometimes when you succeed with something,you'd expect the one person that matter would be jumping with joy for you, but instead, strays away, backs down, picks fights, and manipulates u so you feel like youre the bad guy. Have you ever felt like some things just arent worth it,but think that if you give upthose things, everything willonly get worse instead of better? And instead of continuing life the way its going, or feeling you'll change it for the worst, that you just want to give up alltogether, and just let it all slipthrough your fingers and dissapear, or even die? Have allyou've ever done was stride through the day with a fake smile on your face, and tell everybody everythings okay, when in actual reality, things are the worst theyve ever been? I cant fix anything...the way I used to fix things is too hard to hide now, in all aspects (however you wish to take it)..and medication doesnt do shit...but make me feel chemically portrayed...rather than naturally happy. Im sick of life..and theres only one to fix it. -nikki post comment

[22 Apr 2006|12:39pm] If you think about it, nobody really gives a fuck about anybody on this thing, nobody really honestly cares or listens to anything or even half the time take the time to read anything that anybody posts. So all in all..what is the point? There isnt one..exactly. 2 comments|post comment

[22 Apr 2006|11:53am] Formerly Known as trashyy77 ..testing post comment

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